Hello all of you! To start this off I must say a few things: I will be using this blog as my Pro Ana "Diary." The names I will mention will not be the real names of any of my friends, family or acquaintances. If you do not agree with the things I am posting, I am sorry. You can leave comments and/or email me if you have any suggestions or if you need to just talk to someone. I'm here!
Oh! I forgot! My name is Katie Dunning, and I am 16 years old. I have been a secret Pro-Ana follower for the past 4 years. Ana has been there for me when I needed help, so I stay by her side. The last 4 years have been a roller coaster with my weight. None of my family members know about my little obsession, neither do my friends at school. My boyfriend has no idea either. I love him to death, but I don't think he could ever understand how much I need restriction. If I told him about all of this, he would flip.
A few years ago (4 and a half years-ish) I went through something extremely traumatic. It made me not care about myself. I gained over 30 pounds in ONLY 2 months. I was disgusting. I was fat. I was being bullied by people who I thought were my "friends." At first, it didn't really bother me too much. Then I started listening to the names they called me. They called me "fatty," "gross," and "ugly." Several times I was told that I looked like a man. I was dying inside... I stopped eating and became obsessed with the beautiful Pro-Ana websites and blogs. I lost so much weight, but I was happy! Every time the number on my scale dropped, I threw myself a little party and fasted the next day. BUT every now and then I get a little side tracked and start gaining pounds like crazy.... Thats when I get depressed. WELL, ANYWAY... :P That's enough for today. I hoped you guys enjoy this post and the rest of the posts that I have yet to write!
Stats for today: maximum intake allowance: 500 (day two of ABC Diet)
Breakfast- 1 bottled water, 1/4th of an apple, broth made from a bullion cube. (40 calories)
Lunch- 1 bottled water. (0 calories)
Dinner- 1 bottled water and 1 can of Progresso Light Chicken Pot Pie soup. (200 calories)
Extras- 1 weight watchers Snickerdoodle ice cream sandwich and one cookie. (yes... i know, bad Katie...) (200 calories)
Total Calories Consumed- 440 calories
Stay Skinny! <3
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